{"id":553,"date":"2010-08-30T23:30:57","date_gmt":"2010-08-30T23:30:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/?p=553"},"modified":"2013-05-09T04:16:13","modified_gmt":"2013-05-09T04:16:13","slug":"day-88-cervical-massage-and-exploration","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/?p=553","title":{"rendered":"Day 88-Cervical Massage and Exploration"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/YB7x_c2GD6o?list=PLE9ykWE8TG0Sd3AsThI4vo5P7pjq1o4jh\" height=\"315\" width=\"560\" allowfullscreen=\"\" frameborder=\"0\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m feeling very emotional as I write this.\u00a0 I just finished a long session of cervical massage and exploration.\u00a0 I want to cry.\u00a0 I had great pleasure, don&#8217;t get me wrong.\u00a0 My tears are about the changes in my body.\u00a0 Having a baby seems to change everything.\u00a0 Before I got pregnant I was very close with my vulva, vagina and cervix.\u00a0 I remember back to the first time I ever saw my cervix.\u00a0 I was the youngest in a group of women from age 29-over 70.\u00a0 We were learning how to do self examinations.\u00a0 That day was a day that changed my life forever.\u00a0 I got to see my own cervix and my os (the opening to the cervix) which was a tiny little round hole, so beautiful and perfect.\u00a0 At the moment I was looking I started my menstrual cycle and it seems like and utter miracle happening before my eyes.\u00a0 I kept my speculum that was given to me that day and have checked in on my os from time to time.<\/p>\n<p>Today was the first time looking at my cervix since giving birth.\u00a0 It is no longer a tiny little hole, now it is a big slit, almost looks like a vagina inside my vagina, only lying sideways.\u00a0 I am morning the fact that my body has changed.\u00a0 Giving birth was amazing and I love my baby, but sometimes I want everything to go back.\u00a0 At the moment that I was looking I wasn&#8217;t mourning, just exploring, it&#8217;s just now that I am feeling these feelings.\u00a0 The shift from maiden to mother has not been easy, the hardest part being all of the changes in my body.\u00a0 I am sure that I will continue to fall in love with the &#8220;new&#8221; me, but at this moment I am sad, and that is okay.<\/p>\n<p>I prepared for the session with my speculum, a mirror, so lube, and a flashlight.\u00a0 After putting in my speculum and visually exploring my cervix, I decided to do some cervical massage.\u00a0 So I removed the speculum and I massaged around my cervix with one finger tip, going around and around in circles.\u00a0 My cervix felt softer than I remembered it.\u00a0 Then I used two fingers to massage circles around my cervix, then directly on it.\u00a0 I could put my finger tip slightly into the os, which felt pretty good.\u00a0 This all felt nice and I could feel my cervix respond.\u00a0 I wanted to feel &#8220;uterine flight&#8221; (when the cervix moves up and back, so that you can get deeper penetration) and &#8220;uterine pulsing&#8221; (the cervix moves up and down at the moment of orgasm. \u00a0 I kept my index finger on top of my cervix and my middle finger on the bottom.\u00a0 Then with my other hand I gave myself clitoral stimulation.\u00a0 Trying to keep my fingers on my cervix was hard.\u00a0 As I got more aroused it was harder and harder to reach which tells me that &#8220;uterine flight&#8221; was happening.\u00a0 I could actually feel it with my fingers.\u00a0 But it was difficult for me to have an orgasm with my fingers trying to reach my cervix, so I turned to G-spot and A-spot stimulation.\u00a0 This got me highly aroused and I ended up having a number of vaginal orgasms, upon which I would go deep to my cervix so that I could feel it&#8217;s movement.\u00a0 I really wanted to feel the different between the vaginal orgasm and clitoral orgasm, so I kept working my clitoris with my fingers deep on my cervix.\u00a0 At the moment of clitoral orgasm I didn&#8217;t feel the same bobbing of the cervix as I did with vaginal orgasm.\u00a0 This is interesting to note.\u00a0 Directly after all these orgasms I wanted to look at my cervix again.\u00a0 I was impressed with how healthy and pink it looked.\u00a0 It also seems swollen with arousal, and it looked a little more open when I checked post orgasm.\u00a0 I hoped up quickly and came down from the loft, a little too quickly, my legs were shaking and I was feeling really high from all of the orgasms.\u00a0 It wasn&#8217;t until about 15 minutes later that I got hit with emotion, which I don&#8217;t see as a bad thing, I am allowing the sadness to flow as I mourn my maiden body and come to terms with loving myself and my body as a mother.<\/p>\n<div class=\"twttr_buttons\"><div class=\"twttr_twitter\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<a href=\"http:\/\/twitter.com\/share?text=Day+88-Cervical+Massage+and+Exploration\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-via=\"\" data-hashtags=\"\"  data-size=\"default\" data-url=\"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/?p=553\"  data-related=\"\" target=\"_blank\">Tweet<\/a>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m feeling very emotional as I write this.\u00a0 I just finished a long session of cervical massage and exploration.\u00a0 I want to cry.\u00a0 I had great pleasure, don&#8217;t get me wrong.\u00a0 My tears are about the changes in my body.\u00a0 Having a baby seems to change everything.\u00a0 Before I got pregnant I was very close [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[217,221,223,96,222,220,219,218,122],"class_list":["post-553","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-video","tag-cervical-massage","tag-cervix","tag-cervix-after-giving-birth","tag-clitoral-orgasm","tag-os","tag-self-vaginal-exam","tag-speculum","tag-uterine-flight","tag-vaginal-orgasm"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/553","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=553"}],"version-history":[{"count":10,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/553\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":596,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/553\/revisions\/596"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=553"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=553"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/101daysofpleasure.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=553"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}