Finally, a great session. I feel like I’m back! My partner and I had our regularly scheduled intimacy time today. Things have been so funky this week and I feel like I’ve lost sight of what this project is all about. It’s about pleasure, and this week has felt like a chore. But this session was what I love. I’m making a new commitment to make this more about loving myself and more about what really brings me pleasure, more than anything else. I have to take the time for myself. So, back to my session. My partner and I climbed up to the love loft. We were still having trouble getting out of our heads, so I thought I might as well practice what I preach and use some of my own recommendations to help. I closed my eyes and allowed my partner to tell me an erotic story. He did a great job describing the details and using his touch to ground it into my body. It got me really turned on both mentally and physically and the story telling helped to keep me very present in the moment. We went deep into a fantasy that had us both highly aroused.
After a long session he reached climax. I was on the verge of ejaculating (something that I don’t do much with him, and something he has never witnessed me doing). So I grabbed one of the first toys I ever got, called a Crystal Wand, and I did some U-spot/G-spot stimulation. It didn’t take long at all before I was ejaculating over and over again. Thank God, for the Liberator Fascinator Thow, otherwise it would have been very messy. My partner was a bit surprised by it, he actually gasped and his eyes got really wide. I got a little self conscious, but I was really high from the lovemaking and now the demonstration that I was doing for him. We didn’t really get any afterglow time because the babysitter was off in 5 minutes, so we had to scurry to switch gears. Both of us felt very altered from our experience together. I was so relaxed. The most relaxed I have felt in a very, very long time. YAY!
Day 62- Back into my pattern of Clitoral Stimulation, body tension and then orgasm. These late night sessions are just not my favorite. These orgasms before sleep, take away my sleep and have me up all night, all energized.
Day 63- To balance out my pattern I decided to try something new. Yoga Nidra is a meditation to help you get into a Theta State, in other words, to help you relax really deep. I learned it when I became a Tantra teacher and it was always my favorite part of the weekend workshop. I loved teaching it, but I noticed that the genitals were left out of the meditation. So, I recorded my own version, which I call Sexy Yoga Nidra, where the female genitals are included! I didn’t use my recording, but instead I went through it in my mind. It was a wonderful way to relax before bed and to use visual imagery to get my libido lifted!
Early this morning I woke up on the wrong side of the bed (so much for my elevated moods theory!) due to the fact that I was running late for the dentist, where I knew I would be tortured for the next three hours. Someone suggested that I take a vibrator with me to counter balance the pain with pleasure. I wasn’t brave enough for that, but I did go there in my mind and felt some arousal combined with the sound of drilling. All was good until I got the bill for $1700.oo ouch! That hurt worse than anything. I went to Yoga class because I was a ball of tension, it helped some, but by the time I got home I was glum and not at all in the mood. Pain and financial yuck make a combination for low libido. But when I went down to my office I found a giant box of sex toys and erotica from Eden Fantasys waiting for me! Yippee! But before I dove in I decided to go up to my love loft and continue my yoga practice, only this time with clitoral stimulation. I often here of couples playing with sexual positions, but I’ve never heard of anyone doing solo sex in a variety of twists, so I went for it: Downdog, Forward Bends, Back Bends, Legs Open, Legs Shut, Pigeon, Up Dog, Side Twists, you name it, it tired it. I noticed that closed leg positions or positions that required some muscular tension seems to be the most arousing for my body. After all that I went back to my office to film, and to open my giant box of toys! I laid them all out on my massage table and thought to myself that this 101 Days of Self Pleasure is the best idea I’ve ever had! Here’s a pic… http://101daysofpleasure.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/06/109_0092.jpg