Day 64- Another late night session. Got out a book on Erotic Fairy Tales called In Sleeping Beauty’s Bed. I read two stories. I love to read, I grew up devouring books. I loved romance novels from a very early age and I love fairy tales, so I thought that this would be a great combination. But what I found was that they were too metaphoric for me. I wanted a little bit more meat. Everyone was virginal and it just didn’t do much for me. I admit I have to read some more stories to delve deeper into the world of Erotic Fairy tales and although they were pretty metaphoric, it was still a bit of a turn on, which was good since I’ve been so in my head lately.
Day 65- Today I was on Playboy Radio, a guy named Jeff called in and gave me a suggestion for my 101 Days of Self Pleasure. He Recommended that I try Phone Sex. I admit I have never tried this or thought of it, but why not! I came home to do a little research on the topic. In my google search I came upon Betty Dodson’s site, I’d love for her to give me some homework! At any rate, I found a 1-800 number to call, but thought I’d do a little more research before actually doing it. It was late an night and if I’m going to do it, I want to have an orgasm. I’ve been frustrated with not having an orgasm with all these evening sessions. Why bother self pleasuring when I can’t have an orgasm! Maybe that’s the wrong attitude, but sure do like my orgasms. I did a little genital touch with dreams of having phone sex. One days soon, I promise.
I decided to break open the erotica. I was really intriqued by this film called Zazel, it won a bunch of awards and the cover looked very interesting. The Relatives were out taking a walk and I had just finished up a meeting, so I had a small window of time to do my session. I felt very “naughty” as I locked the door and closed the blinds to my office. I popped the video into my computer and wondered if this is what guys feel like when they look at porn on the internet. The film started and I thought about the little bit of porn I had seen. I only recently watched some for casting my educational film on Oral Sex. This was my first deliberate look at pornography for a self pleasure session. There is something about porn that just doesn’t sit right with me. I don’t know if its the fake fingernails (how do women self-pleasure with those?) or the lack of arousal that I see in some of the scenes. I have to say though that this film was very unique, more artistic, the filmakers took time creating this piece. That I appreciated. Intellectually it didn’t turn me on, but I think physically it much have done something. Or maybe it was the idea that at any moment someone could catch me in the act. At any rate I had a clitoral orgasm in under a few minutes, hopped up quickly and shot my video, just as the relatives were arriving back at our place!
I Started to wonder if I would actually get my self-pleasure session in today. We had relatives come in from out of town, a radio show to do, a museum visit (where I saw a very inspirational and sexy short film called Minotaur), and dinner out. We didn’t get home until 10:00PM, and I still had to get the baby to sleep. But I made it!
I grabbed some Kombucha and headed down to my office. I Started with reading a little erotica from My Secret Garden by Nancy Friday. Just knowing I was reading erotica was a turn on. I thought back to our Radio Show, where we talked about dark sexual energies and ravishment and I thought I’d like to ravish myself. When I looked at my table of new toys I picked one that said Ravishment to me. That was the Nobessence Seduction made out of Black Palm. This wood is so beautiful that I felt honored by it’s sensual hand made sculpture. I was ravishing myself with art! It felt amazing by the way. I sat in my office chair and gave myself deep penetration with the Seduction, while adding clitoral stimulation. First I had an ejaculatory Orgasm, then clitoral. When it was all over it was almost midnight! Whew! Just made it!