Day 47- Erotophobia

Where do I begin? Let’s see, late last night, after midnight, I really just wanted things to be like old days, before my baby was born. I used to get myself to sleep with multiple orgasms every night, but every since I gave birth, I haven’t been able to do that; the opposite happens and I’m up all night. But I went for it anyway. A lovely nostalgic late night/early morning romp.

I woke up in the morning ready for my orgasmic shot of energy, so I made love to myself again. My mind was on fire during the entire session. I just kept thinking about Erotophobia, the fear of the erotic; sometimes also called sexual shame. I know that there are a number of causes, but it’s still so hard for me to understand why sex has become such a “bad” thing. Why are things like masturbation, oral sex and anal play so taboo? I just don’t get it. Sex is wonderful. It’s something so natural. It’s such a way to celebrate being human. I’m glad I’ve worked through most of my sexual shame. It still comes up every now and then, but for the most part I’m pretty free.