Today was the official launch of my new Oral Sex series, so there was a lot to celebrate. The new season of my Radio Show also started. The topic was Lube. It is always such a joy to talk openly about sexuality with other people. And my Radio Show is like an hour of foreplay! I love it. After the show I went out for a celebration dinner, and I purchases a new camera (this is a little retail therapy!). I hope to start posting regular video blogs as this journey comes to an end. I’ve been self-pleasuring a lot these last few days, late at night, early in the morning, in the afternoon. My main sexual partner being gone frees up a lot more time for self love.
Today my mood was high. I felt great. Accomplishment is a wonderful aphrodisiac for me. I played with some fantasy tonight. I was imagining my partner at Burningman having the most fantastic time, flirting with other women, making out, getting his sexy on. Imagining him having so much fun was a huge turn on. Culturally, I think that most people would see this as odd. But I don’t get jealous really. Instead I experience something called Compersion, which is when you actually love it when your partner is loving or being loved by someone else. When I know my partner is having a great time, even if it is without me, I feel really happy. I love the idea of Compersion, it feels so much better than jealousy, which we have come to equate with love. In my self-pleasure today I indulged in my turn-on through this state of seeing my partner erotically happy! I eventually had a wonderful clitoral and g-spot combined orgasm as I floated off in a blissfull sleepy state.