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Day 81- Stretching, Feeling, Breathing, Masturbating

I woke up in the middle of the night touching myself.  I must have been dreaming something juicy.  I took the time to go up to the loft and stimulate my clitoris until I had a lovely orgasm and crawled back into bed and drifted back to dreams.  I woke up feeling very committed to my new challenge of really loving and nurturing myself.

My assistant filled my office with fresh flowers from my garden.  I forgot how much I love fresh flowers.  Our roses are so beautiful and fragrant right now.  My office smells like a fresh flower garden and that feeds me, it brings me tons of pleasure and I am taking the time to savor the scents and the visual beauty of these arrangements.  I also decided to take stretch breaks throughout the day.  I did a little yoga, took some deep breaths and as I made my way back to the office I took the time to feel how amazing I am and suddenly I notice the breeze on my skin and the warmth of the sun on my face and I felt amazing.  Sometimes the sun on my skin along with a cool breeze sends shivers all over my body.  It didn’t take much, and I felt fed, and ready to dive into work.  Just a few moment of noticing and a little self care make the day a magnificent one.

Day 80- Morning Pattern and Committing to Self Love

Still feeling aroused from my evening session with my partner, I woke up wanting more               orgasms.  I went into the pattern, had my clitoral orgasm and started the day.  I really   wanted  to get to the gym for a Core Fusion class, but I couldn’t get out the door.  The baby was crying, I couldn’t find my contacts…I eventually did get to the gym, but I was in a rather sour mood.

My partner recently brought up the fact to me that I really neglect myself.  I started to see all the areas of my life where this is true.  I’m a new mom, I run a very full time sex education company, I produce videos, I write blogs, I appear in the media, and I have two partners.  Life is very full.  I don’t really see it as neglect of myself, it’s more like I’m just no that into self-preservation.  But I can see his point.  I need to take more care of myself and that is what this 101 Days of Pleasure project is about, loving myself, taking time for myself.  But it turns into work in some way.  I have to write my blog, film a video, upload the posts, edit etc.  Sometimes it turns from self-pleasure into an obligation.  In order to care for myself more I will be doing less video posting (and since my camera is gone) and more writing for the time being.  There are some basic things I’m just not good at since I had my baby, like remembering to drink water, to take deep breaths, to brush my teeth and hair.  I feel lucky if I get more than one shower in a week.

Okay, I only have 21 more days of this challenge.  If there is any time to do this, it’s now.  First step- Eat a Healthy Lunch! Next make a list of all the ways in which I neglect myself.  That way I can see what is really going on….So I made the list, and it’s pretty depressing.  The biggest area that I neglect myself is my body, the next is financially.  These are the two things I will be working on for the next 21 days.  Feeding my body and my state of abundance.  No more of this neglect stuff.  I also made a list of what feeds me, and I’m going to do lots more of that.  Over the next 21 days, more self-care, more dance, more attention to my finances, more trips to the gym, eating great food and definitely more deep breaths!  Orgasms are easy, but truly and deeply loving myself enough to make my body a priority is another challenge.  I’m up for it.

Day 55- 1 Minute Erotic Trance

Another 14 hour day teaching at our Super Sex Life Make-Over.  I did a demo for the group on Erotic Trance.  I closed my eyes and quickly used my breath and self touch to go deep into my sensuality and erotic energy.  It’s so hard to describe this experience.  We don’t have words for moving erotic energy, for orgasms that happen from just a thought, or even touching through your clothes.  I have to admit that I am exhibitionist, so having people witness me adds to the experience.  After my one minute erotic trance demonstration the group seemed in awe.  One man exclaimed “I want to do that!”.  Luckily I have filmed what this looks like, since it’s so hard to put into words.  It’s really the first film I ever wanted to make, and I’m going to edit it myself.  It’s my first project where I am editing by myself.  I’m so excited for it.

Day 11- The Dentist, Sex Toys and Positions

Early this morning I woke up on the wrong side of the bed (so much for my elevated moods theory!) due to the fact that I was running late for the dentist, where I knew I would be tortured for the next three hours.  Someone suggested that I take a vibrator with me to counter balance the pain with pleasure.  I wasn’t brave enough for that, but I did go there in my mind and felt some arousal combined with the sound of drilling.  All was good until I got the bill for $1700.oo ouch!  That hurt worse than anything.  I went to Yoga class because I was a ball of tension, it helped some, but by the time I got home I was glum and not at all in the mood.  Pain and financial yuck make a combination for low libido.  But when I went down to my office I found a giant box of sex toys and erotica from Eden Fantasys waiting for me!  Yippee!  But before I dove in I decided to go up to my love loft and continue my yoga practice, only this time with clitoral stimulation.  I often here of couples playing with sexual positions, but I’ve never heard of anyone doing solo sex in a variety of twists, so I went for it: Downdog, Forward Bends, Back Bends, Legs Open, Legs Shut, Pigeon, Up Dog, Side Twists, you name it, it tired it.  I noticed that closed leg positions or positions that required some muscular tension seems to be the most arousing for my body.  After all that I went back to my office to film, and to open my giant box of toys!  I laid them all out on my massage table and thought to myself that this 101 Days of Self Pleasure is the best idea I’ve ever had! Here’s a pic… http://101daysofpleasure.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/06/109_0092.jpg